Releasing July 1, 2014
When Sidney Chandler chooses to leave home she walks away from her life as she
knows it... her family...
Him...
She stepped back, allowing them all to heal... move on... live without her...
Now at the age of twenty nine and almost a decade behind her, she is a master of
disguise. Long gone is the timid girl who lived blinded by the ideas of love.
Until fate decides to intervene and the one man she has struggled to evade at all
costs is pushed back into her life. He knows the real girl behind the façade, only
he can pull her out of her self-imposed exile... breathing life back into her cold,
protected heart.
Fate will do what fate wants and Sidney’s choices are no longer her own... but were
they ever really hers to begin with?
Turning around to go back inside my laughter stops. I don’t feel the crystal dish slip
from my fingers. I just stand here... frozen.
There’s yelling and noise but it’s all muffled... like that night.
I close my eyes.
Breathe... Breathe...
My heartbeat pounding through me the muffled sounds become clear and I hear
Morgan screaming at me.
“Jesus, Sidney! Do you want Mom to kill you?”
Blinking feverishly I look down to see she caught it just as it was about to smash. I
can’t bring myself to worry about that right now. I look back up and watch as Simon,
the boy I was so in love with just moments ago pulls away from a girl that up until
this point was my best friend. A girl I thought I was going away to college with, a girl
who knew how I felt about him.
This is not happening... at my party no less...
“Breathe... You’re in control...” Molly whispers, her hand connecting with my back
startles me.
You know when you witness something and you know you should look away but
you can’t because it’s one of those moments, those damn life changing moments
that your brain makes sure to take notes on so that nothing is missed, no detail is
overlooked, and nothing is ever forgotten. It’s one of those moments in life that
you know instantly will repeat itself over and over in your head until it eventually
causes you to change. It will break you and from those pieces in that moment will
rebuild you. I thought that night was my moment, but I guess that was just a giant
stepping-stone to this. Maybe I was wrong about fate... maybe it forgot about me.</
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My pulse continues to beat through my body in a deep throbbing rhythm, the
darkness of a black out building up. He steps back from her, slightly turning his
head in my direction and I know he knows I’m standing here, he just refuses to turn
and look at me. I’m so dumb, I should have seen this coming. I mean did I really
think I was so different from any of my predecessors? Women, real women, who
have actually given themselves to him completely only to find out the next morning
they’re just one in a crowd of many. Nothing special and forgotten about as soon as
he received whatever it was he wanted from them.
I did... because he told me I was. We had a plan...
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